Work is good. Work is good when your personal life is too complex. When work is there, you stop thinking about those things and peacefully live you 'busy' life. One more good thing about work is that even if you are in a complex, frustrating situation, you more or less know what all things you have to do to come out of it. The same fact does not apply for problems in personal life.
In case you are wondering whether Shaan is going to talk in abstract syntax only.. No I am not! Of course there is a limit to the level of granularity to which I can (and therefore will) go about the stuffs happening in my life, but I will definitely not be abstract.
First thing first. I am feeling sad about a few pals leaving our friend circle. Well in the last one year, a lot of friends have decided to bid adieu to the shores of Bangalore and go back to the safety of Kolkata. But somehow in our flat here in BTM Layout, the things were a lil different. We good ol band of 6 boys somehow managed to stay together (pun unintended). However, the attrition has started here as well.
Suman has decided to say No to onsite offer and more astonishingly, the Huawei offer and go back to kolkata. He has put more priority to is future wife's wishes. I know he will strongly deny it, but, he really wanted a Huawei job - its taxing there in terms of hard work they make you do, but in the end, your career will get a solid touch in Huawei.
Subham is going away as well. His case is a little different in the sense that he is joining Freescale, with a staggering hike of 133% :) Way to go, Bro! Sadness of loosing a good room partner will be there, but then at least, he is successfully chasing his dreams!
Lets come to the second topic of the night. The age-old confusion I am having about my own career. Oh Boy! When do this end! I am sick-and-tired of always cribbing about my career. I hate it. But unfortunately, am yet to get a decent answer. The client side show of LTE is yet to start off. Although the management keeps on pacifying/reassuring us about it, memories of some not-so-pleasant past projects (which ultimately did not come) make us go - "Deja Vu". I myself keep on pushing myself and other colleagues on it. But I can understand their frustration, coz its there within me too! I am just putting a good cover on it. This is one thing which is really on a razor's edge right now. We keep on tilting from on side to another.. We are barely managing to hold on to our balance now.
Okkay.. that brings us to the third topic of this post. The third reason of my uneasiness - I have fallen for a girl. Gosh, I look at the above line and cant help but think how stupid this whole thing is. No I am not saying that a guy falling for a girl is stupid.. its the way I have fallen for is what I refer to as STUPID. I met her online. I have never talked to her.. only chatted (so cant vouch 100% about what kind of a person she is).. she is from kolkata, where I have no chance of visiting in the next three months (and that too, for hardly 10 days). It would be a highly imaginative, romantic type of guy to fall like this. Which I am not. Damn! I did not need this at this stage of my life. My career is in a tight balance. It would have been great to only concentrate only on it. Life plays all these sort of games at you.
So there you are.. three crazy problems.. screwing up my already screwed up life. The 3rd thing might well be infatuation, u never know.. But as of now, I don't want to loose this person. I am not letting her go from my side, if she wants to fly away, its cool too :) I will go back to the life with only one primary goal. Sounds like I am saying this only to comfort myself? No way! I have already done that once in past :)
As Tom Cruise 'the Maverik' will say: It was Crash and Burn 1st time.. 2nd time - I will tell you in a few months :)
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