The wonder-break is over. My little vacation with my folks is finally coming an end tonight. As I sit in the middle of the night and write this blog, all of a sudden I realise that Come tomorrow, Shaan will be back in Bangalore. Away from the wide roads with no traffic, away from the sweet smell of flowers in my garden, away from the peace ful greenary all around Kalyani, away from the compassion of my parents, away from sweet sweet buddies, back to the cold cold professional life of a software engineer. There I have my dreams to live, here I have the people I care for. Ohh how I wish both could co-exist :) First couple of days are the worst in Bangalore. It takes some time to get adjusted with the feeling of loneliness. Work slowly takes over and well.. slowly you get a grip back on your life. Who wants grips though? :)
Its been a good vacation. I take back with me a lot of sweet memories. Being a lil sick during the pujas was something I would have liked to correct if I was allowed a encore, but thats okay :) Missed a couple of buddies.. both went to vacation with their families during the pujas. Never understood why people want to go for a vacation right during the Pujas. This is the time of the year for us bengalis after all! Anyways, I caught up with one yesterday, finally. Really miss this guy in Bangalore. We shared so much in the last six years, took each others advice (mostly craps :P) so many times, put each other into trouble so many times in all these times :P, that it just feels a little odd not to have him around in Bangalore. There are some things that you would not even share with your parents, but you will share with him. Just talking with buddies like him makes life so much more comfortable. Things all of a sudden does not feel so bad. Iguess thats why they are called best friends :)
I must admit, looking vack into my life I dont see tons of happiness, tons of sweet sweet moments. But this vacation I had my share with a few. I meet a person for the first time this Puja, with whom I have shared my passions, life, ambitions for last 4 months. Sounds crazzy right? :)
We dreamt out loud together, we put smiles onto each others face, sometimes we even faught :) but we meet for the first time this Pujas. Yaah sounds crazzy alright :) Gosh is crazzy so good? Why the heck then people try to be so normal then? :)
Sometimes in life you meet people who change the way you look into your life. I have meet a few in my student life, in professional life. After a long time I met such a person as my friend. In today's self centered world, a world where people only care about their own good, own desires, it was a real eye opener to meet some one who gives so much of importance to the desires, dreams of people who she cares about. The extent to which she does it irks me sometimes though, but then you have to admire what is good and rare, Thanks a lot for being here, mam :) To some extent you make me want to believe in people again. It was a real eye opener to see the genuinity in you. The passion with which you care for people around you was really something to be moved. I only wish you cared a little more about yourself (I dont mean your dress collections and pimples, I know you do care for them a lots!), your right to be happy.. really HAPPY. I am sure you will be having all that you deserve in life. Knowing you was a pleasure, Our hang outs rocked! I lived my dream in these few days I guess. Thanks so much for the memories, for the sweet cards, for that ppt, for that memento.. thanks for everything :) Lookin forward to meeting you again, soon! May God always put a smile on your face.
Hmmmmm so what do I have waiting for me in Bangalore? Tricky question. I dearly wish I have a peaceful roomies. It really hurts to see people fighting around. I am looking forward to moving out on my own. But then, thats at least 6 months away. I really look forward to my joining in Kyocera. Really charged up to start working in LTE. Then there is a small desire to join Teach India, They have opened a club in Jayanagar. Pretty close to my place. Am sure I will able to give back something to the society. I was not good enough to lead India, may be I can do my bits in teaching India. Then there is a plan to join the gym at koramangala. I am not playin much cricket these days.. so better get busy with this. Ohh yes, I almost forgot.. I need a haircut! :P Got a lot of rebukes from all lately with the current locks (some people will never understand a fashion statement).. Hehe :P
So this is it then folks! Next blog will be from Bangalore.
So many things to say
so many words to spell
the way you make me feel
I want my heart to tell
No place to run and hide
don't you know....
That I've been strong enough for loneliness
I'm holding back the best
Love will never lie
even when your gone
I will be right here
waiting ‘till we belong
Love will never lie
I stole your rights to cry
I will be right here
waiting ‘till we belong
It's good to know
the words to say
without losing faith
I know that it's coming thru
maybe it's a break for you
Love will never lie
I stole your rights to cry
I will be right here
waiting ‘till we belong
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